At one of my lowest moments, I felt God direct me to a scripture that was so specific and when I read it, it felt so incredibly personal. Most often when there is a pronoun in the bible, it’s a male pronoun, but this one… this one was feminine. Here’s what it said,
Likewise I, God, will comfort Zion,
comfort all her mounds of ruins.
I’ll transform her dead ground into Eden,
her moonscape into the garden of God,
A place filled with exuberance and laughter,
thankful voices and melodic songs.
Isaiah 51:3 MSG
I read the verse above at a time when I felt so broken and so beyond repair and when I saw what God had to say it struck me so deeply. God is aware of all the mounds of ruins I have (and they are many) and He isn’t put off by them. It doesn’t make Him want to give up on me, instead He wants to comfort each and every one of them.
Not only that, but He wants to take my dead places and turn them into paradise. He wants to take these feelings of depression and give me exuberance and laugher instead.
Having faced failure, I have more joy, more freedom, more peace, more empathy, and just more of a passion for life than I ever did before. Which is insane because I really thought that failing would be the breaking of me, but in fact it was the making of me.
I feel a fire in my bones to go after all that God has for me because I’m not afraid to fail anymore. This experience should have left me afraid, more cautious, and slightly bitter, but when God is involved, He works everything together for good. Which is why I don’t have to be bitter or regret one second of what I’ve experienced because God is working it together for good. I know God isn’t holding my failures against me, but in fact He can use it as a stepping stone to take me to wherever He would have me go next.
So if you’re in a season where you feel like you are about to break, embrace it. Break knowing that you are already in the hands of the greatest healer and comforter and trust that He will turn your moonscape into the garden of God.