I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted and I can’t say that I’m officially back. Those of you who have followed my past blogs know that I’ve made a huge transition. I moved to Baltimore and started Dental School! I am living out a season in my life that I have prayed for since 2012 and getting here was nothing short of a miracle. Even still, this has been a very difficult transition.
Also, dental school is very time consuming which is why I haven’t written in a while. That’s a tough position for me to be in because writing is so much a part of me and the way that I interact and connect with other people. I think Jeremiah said it best in Jeremiah 20:9, “But if I say, ‘I will not mention his word or speak anymore in his name,’ his word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.”
With that being said, I wanted to talk to you guys about something I’ve noticed in this transition. I went from living at home with my parents to living by myself in a new city and living by yourself brings about some unanticipated challenges. It’s not so much having to cook and clean and take care of your physical space that’s a challenge. I’ve got that part down, it’s learning to manage your spiritual and emotional space that’s difficult. You’ve entered into this new found freedom. If I need to get up at 6AM for school, I can turn on all the lights and make as much noise as I want in kitchen because I don’t have to worry about waking someone else up. The decisions that I make only affect me and that’s a lot of freedom to have.
Not only is there freedom, but there are so many sources out there to turn to. I think that might be the scariest part. There are so many places I can turn to for peace, happiness, and freedom. I can do yoga and feel a sense of peace. I can watch a movie and experience happiness. I can read a self-help book and start to work through my past experiences. The really scary part is I can do all of that without God. I can gain influence and get 50,000 followers on Instagram. I reach people all over in an instant through Snapchat. I can get a million likes on Facebook and all without God. That’s the struggle of being an adult in the digital age.
Everywhere we turn we are offered lies. Lies that tell us we are the only ones who don’t have it all together. The lie that we can’t make a mistake. The lie that perfection is achievable and if you haven’t achieved it, something is innately wrong with you. We have screens constantly vying for our attention. Whether it’s our computers giving us images of what we should look like, TV screens telling us to sexualize our identities, or our phones compelling us to put out false depictions of who we are. And we buy into it because the lies look pretty good, abstinence isn’t interesting to watch, and posts about depression don’t get likes.
It’s not easy to admit, but during this transition I found myself turning to old habits and old sins to feel satisfied and secure and happy. I share this with you because someone somewhere has done the same. I want to encourage you by saying that no matter what you’ve done or how far you think you’ve fallen, your Father sees you. He sees you and you are precious in his sight. You are honored and He loves you. I also encourage you by saying it gets better. It gets better with God. It gets better when you choose to put Him first and when you reach out to other people who love God and who are pursuing Him. If you are willing to be vulnerable with God and one other godly person, I guarantee you, life gets better. At the end of the day, you can go through life and achieve so much without God, but you will never be whole. You will never be secure and you will never know true love.
“And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul? Is anything worth more than your soul?” – Matthew 16:26
So in this world full of lies, sex, and Snapchat, be sure to take some time out to care for your soul. Protect your emotional and spiritual space because that’s what matters most.
I hope this post has encouraged you. If so, please feel free to comment below and share with others.