Birthday Reflections

Guys… there’s a lot going on right now. This COVID-19 crisis we’re facing on top of, you know, just trying to make it through everyday life. It’s a lot. I’m sure your timelines are already flooded with corona related updates, articles, scriptures, and the like. It’s not my intention to add to that. In fact, I don’t want to talk about the virus at all. I want to talk about life post-crisis.

Like you, before this health crisis emerged, I was living my life. I was already contending with my own fears, struggles, hopes, and dreams. I find myself constantly living in the tension between where I am and where I hope to be. There are so many dreams in my heart, dreams of becoming a wife, working in ministry, having a family, walking in financial freedom, and so much more.

I stepped into 2020 on a mission to align myself with the dreams in my heart, dreams I believe God placed within me. In that pursuit, I’ve seen setbacks, progress, and in some areas I’ve seen no motion all.

Today, I am 26 years old. This past weekend, I celebrated my birthday with friends and family and I had such a good time. Yet, nearing the weekend all the talks of shut downs and social distancing had me wondering if I should celebrate at all. This thought, this mindset became pervasive. I backed off on my prayers for the future and put myself on an internal shut down. It wasn’t a fully conscious decision. I just thought that I’d restart the pursuit of my dreams at a later date and simply focus on what’s in front of me right now.

As I was contemplating what to do about my birthday plans, I felt the Holy Spirit gently direct me not to cancel. I felt God sweetly convict me of this fearful, depressive mindset I was about to fall into. My life isn’t over. This too shall pass. I won’t put my pursuits on hold because God is still in control. This is but a moment and all of God’s promises are still yes for me if I’ll only add the amen.

So today, on my 26th birthday, I am full of joy, gratitude, and hope for the future. This will be my best year yet. I feel it in my bones and I’m holding tight to the One who is faithful, the One who called me, and the One who will make it happen.

God will make this happen, for he who calls you is faithful.

I Thessalonians 5:24 NLT

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